Ruby you are way stronger than you think, you have done the hard part of self evaluating... Learning to lean on friends is/was tough for me however I am finding the best friendships are being formed through that form of intimacy.
P.S. you are beautiful... don't let anyone including yourself tell you different.
Me too, for the leaning on people, always didn't need anyone and now I find people willing to be there for me, all I had to do was be vunerable, something I never allowed.
The whole beautiful thing was that I never had the self esteem or the confidence to allow myself to think I was good enough as I was. This speaks to inner beauty. I always thought I had to be something else. But if you constantly fear what others' perceptions of you will be, should you be authentic and true, then you can't like who you are, becasue you never get to be that person.
Now I am, and it is very very cool
Not to say that some days I don't pretend strength when I have none or calm when I am freaking out, but these are parts of me too.
I always think of that little kid on you tube, in the mirror? "I love my whole HOUSE...ya ya ya"
