How are you doing ? your eye- the "trip" da da dummmmmmm???? i think about you all the time. are you okay and doing okay?
i'm hoping you're hanging in there alright. it's alot on your plate at one time. isn't it amazing what we endure - one step at a time- ??? i'm always surprised how giant and awful it all would look if we just wrote a list (mlc) - and how we just all keep going forward - one day at a time.
I'm a bit philosophical this a.m. reading "a prayer for owen meany" - a very strange book , but interesting, by john irving(i think) wrote "word according to Garp" - also wierd and interesting - back in the day.
i'm wondering and on the search about faith in life- raised episcopaleon (sp?) - intellectually embrace it and buddhism- pretty much of a non-participant last 30 years or so w/ "establishment" - other than inside my head. i believe something- i never was raised on the God has a specific interest in you - thought. more like we're all just bumbling along in life doing best we can with human nature & free will.... i'm a do unto others..." kinda guy.
like most of life's questions and problems - ya always seem to have the concrete- in-your-face aspect - and then the intellectual overview-
i'm not so sure i've ever captured senenity- i need some.
so - if i keep myself just thinking about today- and DO NOT GO BACK into the past at all- good or bad - i keep even. do you find it true too? do you allow yourself to get all rememberie about the pst and allll the good? do you stop yourself? (if it's not too personal). do you find yourself remembering the bad? judging, critical? or do you shove it out of your mind (forever?)....
just if you have any m.o. that works about the above. it's a very very lot of "stuff" - both the good and the bad.
as usual- hard for me to reconcile and get a fixed bottom line on my heart & thoughts about it all.
HEY- WHAT??? ME OVERTHINK EVERYTHING IN THE UNIVERSE??? I was happier when i truly believed if you had love it would all somehow work itself out - no kidding- i did. i'm not sure if i still do- yet - here i sit - pretty much doing nothing - allowing it all to play out (per db) - am i nuts or wise??????? i have a feeling it's one or the other - BIGTIME...
talking to the gal that called yesterday- got me thinking and rethinking and so on. i guess - all in all - it's a very bad idea to answer questions and rehash all the junk about this mlc.
it reminds me of painful stuff that i shove away. i can always dredge up the good and enjoy it- should we EVER go to the dark side? ya think.
i'm a total drag so i'm getting right out of this post. sorry to be such a bog-down this moring.
hope your day is good- or okay- hope you're okay- hang on- i'm thinking "all will be revealed in the fullness of time" or some such-
