In answer to the fear post I certainly realize that fear is part of life. But what I am saying is to look at why it exists in areas of our lives and what we can do about it. Facing them down instead of ignoring the why is tough but I find that the pit in my stomach goes away. The hamsters stop running and I am truer. I only refuse to let fear move in.
My last great fear is letting H go completely. So this speaks to BD. I am getting there on my timeline. Takes a lot of work to get there. I was exploring this myself last night when I thought of H and massage girl. How he is not done and still loves her. If he goes back then that will be when I cut the ties. To give him clarity perhaps and to protect my heart. This is the only boundary I have.
If that day comes, I'll be looking for my DB wolf pack
