How does the saying go? "It will be alright in the end, and if its not alright its not the end"
Well nothing seems right, so I guess I am not finished in any shape or form.
It doesn't feel like we will get through this together for the first time since BD (just over a year now) I guess because I haven't seen him for over a month, and its been 2 weeks since he has e-mailed. Yet it doesn't feel right to me that we will never be together again. Even being in our house doesn't feel right either.
I feel like I am drowing in a wave of despair. I don't quite know where it came from, but I can't find my way out of it either. No Panic, just the feeling of being held down... And I have no answers today.
