You know? You guys all rock, Linda, RT, Hopeful, Turtle, Bug, AS etc.etc etc. You actually have been my rock, your support, advice, kicks in the head make me a better person everyday (Tori, BD, Subguy, SD, KG ,Busting..... you all know who you are)
SE2- great date, like him, easy to talk with, fun to be around, cut him loose tonight. 1) He is looking for relationship, I am not. 2) I am carving time away from me and my kids to spend time with him. I am not willing to do that to him, me or my kids. 3) Possibly still in love with H (sh*t) Okay facetious but is true and not fair to a guy who was starting to really want to spend some time with me.
So authenticity means I am going to have to ask the hard questions of myself beforehand next time...Why am I here and what do I want out of this?
I start a fulltime internship plus classes plus an hour commute two times a day soon. I will barely have enough time to sleep never mind give to someone else.
Hopeful- I talk about GFs because I would rather not hide, I find knowing rather than guessing is easier to deal with,
Turtle- dates were nice...geographically we are far apart, makes it even more difficult.
Linda-awaiting my contract any day.
Courage is not the absence of fear. I find fear is the hardest thing to live with, so I will not do it anymore.
