Living In The Now (La Deuxieme)

[hopefulinga]

a slave to emotions and what others thought of me

I can relate to being a slave to emotions. I've never really cared about what others thought of me, except for those close to me. Kinda comes with the line of work I'm in. I currently take peoples children from them for a living. That is part of my break down with H. I relied too much on his not making me feel good. However, I don't believe that a good M should go on like that for any period of time.

As for the sex thing, I have the question in my mind. My DB coach told me it is a bond with H. That is the only part of our M that hasn't fallen apart. Go figure. As long as we can keep our emotions in check and expectations down, I guess we'll be ok.

Details on the date!!!

I don't know how your endure your talks with H about his GFs. I don't know that I have the skin to do it.