Me- LBS or WAS?

[littleGTO]

PS- First day back was good- thanks for asking! My new job is going to be A LOT of work but ultimately I think I will enjoy it very much.

labug- You are right that I may be running- IDK. I am tired of feeling hurt and sad. In fact I most days I feel pretty good- have accepted what IS and am living my life.

Part of that feels like I am ready to move on/enjoy new R's (which I am a bit). But, I do have boundaries with cute guy- very clear boundaries & he knows what these are too.

ruby-I am definitely not hanging out with him for revenge. He is someone I enjoy talking to & having fun with (playing board games). Yes, we have kissed-one time. Will it happen again? Likely.

PS- What do you mean "He walked away?" H's OW evidently told him SHE needed time to be alone. Her D is final this week. I don't know what this will mean down the road... will H wait to she if she changed her mind to be with her--possibly, maybe probably. Once thing is VERY clear to me...if this rekindles I will be filing. I am not going to live my life wondering when/if it will end again and again.

I was already on the edge of filing myself before our sitch shifted (H has NC with OW...maybe at work ???) & I just started a new job.

I am willing to wait a couple of months to see what happens. But, I will continue on my own journey at the same time. I pray that God will lead me & I trust he will help me to make good choices.

PS- "What do you want the end result of this mess to look like?" The answer is I don't know. 6 months ago that would have been an easier answer. Now I have traveled further on my own path and it would take A LOT on H's part for me to consider R. I'm not saying I wouldn't consider trying BUT I think he's MONTHS and MONTHS away from even considering thinking about R. I don't think I have it in me to not move forward which may in effect mean that I am no longer choosing to stand.

For now I am sitting back from it all. Guarantee you I will hang out w cute guy (with boundaries), though.