let's start at the end, shall we?

[KindaHappy1]

PS, thanks again.

I agree, there is no normal. I just want to be at a point where my fears of abandonment don't push others away. I need to stop the self sabotaging behavior.

I agree with the importance of goal setting. In Susan Anderson's Taming Your Outer Child she explains how to project into the future when a certain goal has been met, then you work backward and figure out the steps it took you to achieve that goal in that time frame. When you are done, you have a blueprint to achieving your goal!

I really feel like a new man today. I know that there will be times that I am hurting, but by that time, I'm gonna have so much going on, that I wont have time to wallow in self pity.

I saw on facebook my older brother was going to a concert fest in a few weeks. I messaged him asking if I could tag along. I love my bro, but we never hung out. He was happy that I asked AND he invited me to join them in a Guitarkestra performance!

I've wanted to learn to play the guitar forever, now I'm going to get one, perform, and then learn to play. I love the backwards-ness of it!

Truth be told, I still want my W back, but now, it's not my focus, and I'm not planning on letting that want hold me from progressing on living a fun filled life anymore.

Before, everything I had to look forward to involved my wife (our first date after separating, counseling, second date, the wedding we went to, second MC...)
Now, it's all about me!

I am very curious as to what you think you would change if your wife signs the papers?