My X finally got a facebook and like a train wreck I had to look... I don't know if i'm in some unreality fog or if I truly faced reality. Not seen pictures of them together before so i think i did pretty good when i actually saw them.
Its been 3 years with separation and divorce. I cant imagine facing my X and actually asking him about OW. Hurts no matter what. Found it kinda pathetic actually. Amazing the things he can do with her now since we had so much holding us back...kids commitments, community, church, softball, high school, etc.
And the comments from people... people i thought were my friends who have been more loyal to him in this whole affair. Like no biggie. You guys look great!
I atleast have no contact even though D lives with me and I care for her 24/7.
I just need to jump off that bridge and see theres an amazing life for me somewhere too!
Cried tonite too and thought, just let it out. Let God do with it what he will. Maybe he's answering my X prayers too. Hes happy at least he seems. Oh well maybe ill be better tmrw.
Well get to the other side.
M: 49 H: 49 S23 D24 (disabled from car accident 6 yrs ago) M: 21yrs BD: 1 month after D home from hospital (after 6 months) D: 3/11/11 Moved: 10/11/11 to FL for SCI recovery X: engaged w/OW
