let's start at the end, shall we?

[KindaHappy1]

"So, I found a way to detach... by finally coming to my senses and realizing what a cold-hearted, manipulative, lying witch she is. "

Never use anger as a method to detach. All that does is make you filled with anger, pain and resentment.

Detach clean.

Thanks MrBond, I agree with you.

My initial reaction was anger, and the anger let me see her as she has been, not through the lens of adoration I had been using. I did not feel any detachment while angry, In fact I felt so attach it was like I was being ripped apart. It wasn't until I cleared my anger while meditating that I was able to feel a bit detached from her.

By rereading my post, I can see the anger is still there and leaking out. I feel like I am in such a state of denial at times. Like if I can fool myself into thinking things are better that they are, I feel better, but then I realize that I have set myself up for more heartache when reality come crashing in.