Lost, confused and trying to make a stand

[brobafet]

Rock,

I'm not beating myself up. I was at a really really REALLY low point. I just don't want to keep coming here and repeating the same thing over and over again. I want to be posting my goals and how I'm changing my life. Not missing the one that is now dead. I made a huge mistake yesterday and asked xW about new man, it destroyed me. I can't do that to myself any more. I'm seriously putting my hand in the door way and letting it slam. I'm making the conscious decision to not let this bring me down any lower. I will let the emotions run their course and embrace them.