Blowing in the wind....

[RosaLinda]

Hi Bea! I so agree, i didn't mean to imply that I thought if I'd been aware of the existance of LLs over the past 38 years, I could have warded off my H's MLC somehow. What I meant was that my double vision eyes had suddenly become aware of all the kind little things he does for me. When I was driving to work, I noticed that he had replaced the squeaky streaky windshield wiper blades on my car. He does stuff like that for me all the time, even now while he's emotionally emeshed in this toxic relationship with the Russian. I always thought it was so nice and made sure to show appreciation for his kindness, but suddenly I realized that that is how he shows his love for me. 

Because I took that LL quiz a week or so ago to try to figure out his LL. I always knew I craved physical touch although I'd never heard of LLs, and sort of assumed that the fact that he was never very physically affectionate to me meant that he did not love me as much as I loved him. 

Thank you Wonka. You are always picking me up, brushing me off, and setting me off in the right direction I am SO excited about England. I think I'm more excited about the Isle of Wight than Londoni! It looks like a fabulous place with castles and cute pubs and beautiful beaches. 

Thanks Betsey. You're right, I can see my friends' point of view. I told them too much about my sitch years ago, back in 2010 and 2011, and told them all that he was in love with me again last fall, and then told them too much again this past March when they disappeared together. What set them off this time is telling a couple of them that he is going to Moscow. 

Usually when they ask I just say things are ok, and explain DB principles when they push too much. What hurt me this past week is that the two of them, two divorcing women, separately took it upon themselves to tell me what they are all saying behind my back, and how ridiculous I appear to them. But, of course it's naive to think that a bunch of women are not discussing it among themselves. 

I'm sorry your sister hurt you Betsey, and am so glad that your business plan panned out and was successful for you. 

"But she said what yours are feeling: They're scared for you. Scared that you'll put your life on hold and be accepting crumbs from a guy who doesn't deserve you. They may be right. But in the end, all decisions on how you choose to fight are 100% yours. Don't be afraid to stick up for yourself if you feel this way.

If you don't, then you have other issues and they should probably be addressed. AFTER you come back from vacation. Don't you let this ruin your time!"

Bets, believe me, in his current state, my H does NOT deserve me. I guess my life WAS on hold all these years but it isn't any more. I am supremely happy, faking it until I make it, and like Forever said "Co-workers only worry about you when you appear to be floundering. If you're happy and content, they'll back off."