NEW LIFE / NEW ME

[Fartiltre]

Today I picked up S10 at W1s place and stayed there for a little while. S10 had a cold so no school today – we just went home and we have had the best of days. I enjoy the time with him so much and believe this is a mutual feeling.
S10 told me that XW1 and W ate dinner with the children’s yesterday at Ws place. I knew this was coming but it still gives me some unpleasant feelings. My whole family without me, but I can’t go there. I am guessing that W is trying to get her cake this way and hopes it won’t do.
IMO this is good for the children so I will just have to swallow the camel and then wonder why XW1 didn’t tell me this when I visited today.
XW1 is nicer than ever towards me! The invitation to go with her and S10 on ski has been mentioned again, standing closer, talking more and so on. I don’t believe anything should be put into this other than she has no reason not to be nice and pleasant but it is still a little funny in all of this(don’t worry, Sandi).

W sent me a text last night about some missing things and asked if I knew anything.
She has gone quite businesslike in her wording and she has stopped using smileys…I read a change and I am certain this is due to me telling her that friends won’t do for me. But then again I am mindreading and do not know anything.
I answered kindly this morning and got a reply back in same style, but with a new question that I also answered.

I called W this evening to talk to the girls but they were watching a show so W told me they would call back and they did. D6 didn’t feel like talking but D4 and I had a chat and that was nice! She is looking forward to seeing me Wednesday and she was just the sweetest on the phone. I will have to learn that I miss them and I definitely need more pictures around me.
I also need to schedule this with W. I don’t feel like calling her every other evening but as LTH wrote this will be easier with a schedule. I mentioned this to W this evening without making the actual schedule and she asked why. I told her that I miss the Ds and it’s nice to talk to them. I felt awkward saying this because I don’t feel like sharing that feeling with her but it is the truth and the only thing I could think about stating at the moment.
She came back on the phone after talk with D4 and I ended convo almost immediately.