Even without snooping, she makes it obvious that she is spending time with other OM and will pretend to be talking to someone else on the phone when she is talking to OM. She is not a very good cheater. Unfortunately, I don't know how much more I can take of this. I had initially told myself that our anniversary would be our deadline. Our anniversary is this week and things are looking dim. I am going to treat her like the princess she is and make that day a day to remember. That said, I think I am wasting my time and money at this point but will love her anyway.
I am meeting with an attorney on Tuesday to see what will likely happen when the almost inevitable divorce comes. My wife and I were planning on going on a cruise as a family in December and have to pay for it by the end of September - so it is looking like that trip will not happen as I don't want to spend 5K only for us to get a divorce. My daughter is going to be devastated and she is the only reason at this point that would continue on trying to save this marriage. At the same time, I am expecting the worse and feel like I have lost my wife forever. This year has been the worse year ever. The tears, cries, pain and overall torture this emotional roller coaster has been is really beginning to take its toll on me. I don't want to live in this place forever or another six months. I want to move on with either a life with my wife or begin a new chapter if that is what will happen. I don't want to be limbo. I don't want to go home and not feel loved, not feel wanted, not feel like my wife doesn't give a rip about me. I want more than anything to be a family - to be one - to be united and intertwined in love. This is not how I envision my life to be. This is not want I want. Ahh...... I feel like this roller coaster is about to crash.
