I keep hoping this gets easier, but it seems very difficult to believe. It has been a week since her declaration she won't be coming back. Our contact is almost non-existent. I woke up and began the day believing I would get through this. I keep telling myself not to believe what she says and its not over yet. However, I feel the same stress I did when this all began: my abdomen feels like I did a hundred crunches (which is not something I have actually done); without knowing it, I'm pacing around the house; I find it difficult to make a decision to do anything; and I'm still prone to unexpected bouts of crying. Severe thunderstorms did not make it any easier. I think the only evidence of my willpower is the fact that I did not initiate contact with her this week. On the other hand, a single email from her can get me through an entire day without the emotional roller-coaster.
