Actually, I said that and then realized I was not any different. I would tell H it was over with OM and physicslly it was but emotionally it wasn't. I knew I didn't want to end our M but I was afraid to give up the happiness, freedom and fulfillment I had found so I told him what he wanted to hear and then did what I wanted. I wasn't trying to be mean or string him along; I knew deep inside I didn't want to lose him or end our M but I was also very, very co used and afraid of going back to that place I had been in for years. "One toe in" was probably a very accurate description for me for a long time, I just didn't admit it.
I am not excusing or justifying W's behavior. I just suddenly saw it from the POV I had after my A.
Thanks for that LTH. So what do you suggest I do right now.
M36 W31 S4 S2 T5 M4 BD Jan12 S July12 Recon Sep12-Nov12 ILBINILWY Jan13 OM x 2 in 2013 W wants R July 13 I start D. Jan 14. Meet GF Nov 13 Have I changed enough? Jul 14
