Double-down, I'm unfortunately getting re-acquainted in my second time on this site.
Your patience and grace is unbelievable. I know how it feels to feel panicked/rushed to do SOMETHING!
I came here in 2009 to try to save my marriage with my first wife, and it failed miserably. During the separation/divorce period, I NEVER thought that there would ever be anything good in my life again. However, the next two years were unbelievable - the best two years of my life, bar none. My kids and I formed a bond, I had friends pour into my life, my spiritual life was deep and rich, and I was so incredibly full of joy, it was unbelievable.
Even though it feels like utter crap right now, even if the worst case scenario happens, I can vouch that it is not the end of the world. I know it probably feels like that some days - I can remember reading a friend's Facebook post about his anniversary and just breaking into tears. (I do NOT cry!
Stay strong, focused, clear, patient. I preach this to myself every morning, even when I sometimes fail.
