WR, Since S18 doesn't want to ask, you have Option B to fall back on. I would contact the BIL and inquire about the tickets.
As for what others have told you about the tenant, take it w/a grain of salt. Even if he had feelings for you, he did not act on them, nor were you aware of them. Please remember that you did not caused your h's mlc. It is a situation that was created a very long time ago when he was a little boy. There is no way that you could have prevented it because it was going to happen whether he was married to you or to someone else or even single.
Do not feel guilty about something you weren't aware of nor had control over. Let the comments go because each person will have see things differently, just as we can interpret the written word differently here.
You need to let it go...you are going to drive yourself crazy and make yourself sick from the stress.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
