My mother is dying. XW wants to be my friend.

[tadpole1025]

Thanks friend.

I feel so bad for her. She wants to go home so bad. I think she wants to go there to die. I'd like for her to go home too, but know that it is much better for her where she is at.

Her breathing is slightly labored these days. She says she can almost feel the cancer growing inside of her and putting pressure on her lungs.

It really blows not being able to do a damn thing for her. I feel so helpless and hopeless.

I'm really all she has these days. There were three of us brothers. My younger brother committed suicide a few years back and my older brother is a drug addict and a compulsive gambler. He doesn't even really seem to care.

It seems like just yesterday that she told me that she was sick...

XW had always told me in the past that she would help me take care of mom and look after her when the time came.

Guess it's just me and time is getting short.

Tad