Yes, there is a clear pattern of her saying no to whole family activities or to activities with me. She keeps at a physical distance from me even, if we have to sit on the same bench, for example, she'll slide away, avoiding getting to close. Or another example: daughter proposes that family play a board game together, but W refuses, mumbling some excuse. Later I see W watching a movie with daughter.
I understand that not participating is her choice.
I sleep downstairs, away from the others. Evenings are typically dinner at 6 or 7, then kids and W go back upstairs, and I am alone until going to bed. Daughter or son may come down for a few minutes, but basically Youtube is my only companion.
It feels like my reason to live - the kids - has been taken from me. My W has won the battle, and I can only do damage control.
If we were to divorce, then I would probably have some access to the kids at least. As it is, I do not feel welcome upstairs, where I am an intruder, and so am consigned and punished (for what?) to being alone downstairs.
Luke
M58, xW54 S22, D18 M 1984, D 2016 Living a new life.
