This week has really been trying my patience waiting for baby, (im ready to not be pregnant anymore) but after today I'm pretty happy my little guy hasn't arrived just yet. Another good example of how gods plan doesn't always match what we want, but things seem to work themselves out. Having a little extra time to interact w/ H beforehand has been an unexpected blessing.
H and I didn't get into any relationship talk in person when he stopped by but he texted me when he left to say he just couldn't get the words out. I replied that i just enjoyed his company. Afterall its him wanting to talk, not me pressing o have an R talk at this point. Then he emailed and called several times later in the day. I used to not take it well when he went the electronic route to communicate but today I embraced it and said I understood sometimes its easier to get things out by email.
He said a few things about feeling bad abt the baby and that he's tried several times to file for D but can't bring himself to do so. To my surprise he even said what I've been yearning to hear for a long time - that there are things he misses that made him happy!
I know I've mentioned that I don't want him coming back just over baby guilt, so to hear he's missing things (unrelated to baby) was a huge gift today.
Where we stand now... The slooooooow track of figuring out what comes next. When baby comes home and settled in he's 'open to discussing baby steps for moving towards fixing things.'
I'll take it. And I like that the plan is for after baby, bc honestly I don't need any extra pressure to work this out overnight in a rush
BD: Aug 2012 Separated since May 2013 S born Aug 2013 Aug 2013 H agrees to consider 'baby steps toward working things out' H is/was actively seeing someone?
