I think acceptance is a big portion of my moving on. I have mostly realized the things that trigger me, and for the most part I can avoid that. This situation definitely put my feathers in a bunch though. I just don't like the disrespect, and there is no other way for me to see this. My wife bringing another man, while we are still married, to my property to socialize is a slap in the face. With that said, I do need to pick the fights that need fighting, and that is going to be in regards to securing my financial future and time with my daughter. I am going to let wife run around, play, vacation and what have you, while I start to focus more on the important aspects. I need to accept that this marriage is over. I am not going to turn it around. I am not sure that I could hold my head up, even if it could be turned around. Too much damage has been done to our lives. Therefore, I need to accept it and make the things happen that I NEED to have happen.....I need to think about myself 5 years from now.
La, you're right. I am broken because of myself. I allowed this all to affect me very deeply. I need to stop that, but HOW?
Cas, thanks for the words of encouragement. I DO NEED to change my focus on what is important, what is real and what is simply an emotion.
