Lost, confused and trying to make a stand

[brobafet]

Journaling;

Why do I let you occupy my mind so much? You’ve done nothing but hurt me, destroy me. You are a terrible person and I don’t know why I let you control my thoughts. You’ve found another person (which I knew about) and you are in love with him? What do you know of love other than your self serving, manipulative tactics. You are someone who is only interested in your own goals. Never reciprocating the love that I gave to you. You are someone that I found so easy to love, to take care of, to speak to and you threw it all away? I want to be free of you. I backslide and I am tired of it. I see you or hear your voice and it tears me to shreds. I’m moving away from all of my support. You are selfish, you are spiteful and I don’t know my worth. Why can I not stop thinking about you? I am not going to allow this to happen to me any more. This is my last post that I will ever make about how I allow you to occupy my mind. I will not allow the pain to continue. I will find myself, I will be better.