Hey mimi some of W's complaint were valid a bit but was no reason to open up this devilish situation I acknowledged some of the issues and God revealed them to me during this time and I've asked for deliverance and forgiveness for not following his order in my marriage but this junk is not deserved by any stretch plus she won't or don't believe she had any issues but I started building walls that caused issues but it was bcuz of both of us but I had to look at my commitment b4 God and look at the positive not negative parts of our marriage but I acknowledge have trust issues, selfish issues and some control issues bcuz of trust issues but these are also what came back to me from my honey but I can only change myself but I just realized that last year 2012 when I found out she had been going to lunch at work with this coward from work August 22nd to be exact via mobile logs and that night I felt so enraged and betrayed I punch my steel rear door then fridge and the fridge fought back to break my hand she had really no remorse stating she had checked out of our marriage and this ugly dude like almost 400lbs is who listened only to lie and deceive her but she said when she found out he was married it was too late bcuz she believes she love him and doesn't love me (the in love feeling) anymore and I was destroyed bcuz I Love her so much and asked God to give me a Love I never had for her but the way he requires us to love our wives and no I'm not a angry person but I am very territorial and I wanted to break this cowards face, back, legs etc but as far as going to the house where he claimed his wife lives there with their kids bcuz he moved out and my wife falls for the game and deception but every night I would go pass his car would be there but my wife continues to believe everything this punk says so I was trying to prove to her she's been played but like my coach says they believe everything and I can't make them see the truth he basically has to reveal the truth by getting caught lying so I'm trying to do my 180 but its hard bcuz of me continuing being devoted and faithful to my wife not just for me but for God and our children so I'm moving on with continuing working out bcuz since finding out I dropped like 50lbs want to drop 25 more all muscle start getting my swag and confidence back I believe she's noticing but I'm not going to fall for the banana in the tailpipe anymore thinking we're going back to normal I want to be better than ever and my Marriage to be better than we could imagine.
