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[Not Quitting]

So H actually showed up to go swimming last night with S13. He came back to the house afterwards and it felt like he was reluctant to leave. Not sure if I'm just imagining things so I'm trying not to read anything into it.

While he was at the house one of his female friends (not OW) phoned and he declined the call. That's something new. He's also decided to cut his hair and is currently sporting more mature looking crew cut. I made a point of telling him the new cut was more flattering on him. He stuck around to tuck S13 into bed, and for a while afterwards just chatting about work, weather, plans for upcoming weekends, etc.

As he was about to leave his buddy across the road invited him over for a beer. Before he left he did mention that this weekend's visit might not happen because the boys' weekend that was cancelled a couple of weeks ago might be back on. Haven't mentioned that to S13 yet, but even if H doesn't come, we're still going ahead with the planned activities. S13 isn't going to miss out on something just because H's plans have changed.

For the first time in a couple of weeks I didn't want him to leave. I'd been pretty good about being detached and non-emotional around him but had to fight the emotions last night. Maybe it was seeing a bit of the old H once again.