And, FY, your 2x4 about me kissing cute D'ed guy hit me smack in the face. Do I regret it? NO. But, it has made me stop and reflect where I am or am not headed right now. He is not my OM. He is a friend, but I did step over the "friendship boundaries." But, to be honest, I do want to hang out with him more and I don't know what will happen moving forward.
Sorry, I just calls 'em as I sees 'em.
"Just friends" is what everyone in a beginning EA/PA says to themselves and others. Outsiders, (and spouses) can see it for what it really is.
You admit dropping him would be difficult... that says a lot, don't you think? Those dopamine chemicals keep pulling you back. Just know that Affair (and rebound) relationship don't often last long. Look at H's R with OW. I want better for you... and you should too.
I think you are wise to step back and take your time here, Turtle.
M: A really long time. Crisis: 5 years. She's still worth it.
Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose. -Viktor Frankl
