Me 10 months on. Dark and detaching still.

[hotwheelsaust]

Thank you for the reply Ruby. I think the W was out of place too. What do you mean by making the tattoo into something else? If anyone asked about it, I told them it was as a positive for me.

Am I Eeyoure, I don't think I am. I have fun at work, most teachers say I am always fun, happy and smiling. Don't simply know anymore. Yes, I used to be or say a lot of negatives around people, not about them, but about the subjects being spoken. If that question was asked pre BD, I would say yes, now, I have made sure I don't say anything negative.

I am really not trying to "what if" about things, but explore other answers. More trying to ask questions about whether I should look at different approaches to things etc.

Even all this talk from the boss hasn't affected me anywhere near what it would of back in the days. What I am trying to do is work out why? What can I do to make it better?

Most of the questioning was more along the lines of: should I change my approach to the sitch? Should I do something different? What and how? If the W feels that I am possibly in the frame of mind that I don't know what I am doing, what can I do to change that view? I felt I was doing a pretty good job of improvement, with positive talks to the boys, no facebook negatives, good phone conversations. Considering she doesn't see me, or talk to me. This has all been based on her seeing or hearing about the tattoo picture.

Today is passing me by, but, I agreed to go to a 15km cross country run tomorrow with a parent today. Not bad considering the talk with the boss and my throat feels like a desert.