Hi everyone! First let me say I have missed you all so much! My computer crashed and then H decided not to pay our phone/Internet bill. But thanks to my wonderful daughter and her friend they gave me a new to me laptop that they fixed up just for me. And bless my Dad's heart he paid our bill for us. I indeed do have some blessings in my life.
Where to start on getting caught up. H is in a very bad tailspin/nosedive. H is extremely depressed. H just keeps saying how " messed up" his life is. I say nothing. H has been very mean and saying awful things to me about he and JW. But then the next day can be almost human. It's like he is 2 separate people. I am distancing as much as I can.
Our financial situation is completely in the toilet. I found out that H as been using those scary check cashing places. H has pulled us down so far money wise I don't think we will ever recover. I am so terrified that we will lose our home over his stupidity.
I am not sure where I stand right now. Things are just so out of control all the time. It seems like our whole lives have been in chaos for so long. But a few times in the last 2 weeks I have seen this tiny part of my old H. But then it's like H realizes it and goes right back into monster mode.
I will need to get caught up with everyone's sitch. I am so glad to be back . You all have been my support and I have missed you all. I have adopted you all in my heart! Take care and have a good night.
