Divorced-not done-But wondering ?

[Live4myDay]

JJ...wow. I needed to hear that. You are so much further along than me. I'm printing what you posted to add to my book to reflect upon. I need to get to the place where you are at. I tell myself all the time, I'm not his wife anymore. he is not my husband.

I would hope that my memories have meaning, more so than his new ones with OW. He has torn me down so much and replaced everything good about us with tainted memories of his creation. He makes his life out with OW to be all that and how we could have never been anything more.

Who knows maybe it will come full circle. I pray. Sometimes I think this is God's plan to move on and He has someone else is in His plan for me. Then I think that this man I married was the plan...will always be the plan. He hates divorce and my XH has chosen a different path by his free will. Will he ever find me again?

Detachment is so dead on...but so hard to accept. That's where faith comes in. You can't go wrong in praying for what God has in his plan.

I don't know. Honestly, if he came back tmr I would have to try to R...but as my kids tell me...would you really want him after everything he's done to you? Like the prodigal son...I would have to believe in love.

Just they the X are searching for something that was right in front of them all along... love and 2 amazing kids and amazing families (his and mine) all for what?

I just have to pray and believe in something. I will keep reading your post, because you have truly helped me realize I have so much more work to do on me.
Thanks.