BD One Year Later

[hopefulinga]

You are too kind, Ruby. It was nice to hear someone verbally acknowledge that I looked nice. WOA is one of my LL. I cannot tell you when the last time was that H told me I looked nice. His excuse is that I should know. I could look like I just fell out of a magazine and he wouldn't notice, at least not verbally.

House 2 is impractical because it has really only 2 bedrooms and way too much living space. I am afraid of the ability to re-sell in an easy manner. I also think it is a little bit out of my price range. I don't need a sunroom that is almost as big as the rest of the house.

I'll keep looking. Something will pop up again.

I did talk to D a little bit, but when she gets into one of her moods, it is very difficult to talk to her. She was out of kilter tonight because I was supposed to go out and I didn't. I got about an hour of nasty, cruel behavior before I finally popped. The nice routine didn't work. I finally took her cell phone and had to get into her face about disrespect to get her attention.

You are definitely on for drinks and dinner. I will make it north at some point. Just don't know when.

I texted H yesterday that we needed to sit down and work out logistics on D in the next few weeks. No response.

He has no clue that I am out with a realtor looking at houses, even though I told him I have one. He acts like I am BSing.

I've been doing a lot of thinking about what a new R would look like and I don't think we can do it without some outside help.

Before I move, I intend to talk to H, throw MC and/or Retrouville out one more time and tell him that I have funding and am ready to move on. I don't know that it will make any difference.

While he is telling people that we are having problems and doesn't want me around, I've found out he is not using the D word, which he doesn't do with me either. And he still introduces me as his wife.

Some days I just don't get it.