So, what is my course to being a better man, BUT one that will not allow me to be a completely broken man? I DO NEED to protect myself emotionally. How do I proceed with wife and OM? Do I just continue to be hurt and bear that pain? I mean how do I handle it?
How much more does it really make it hurt if they are at your campground together than knowing they are together? Honestly.
If she hadn't told you, as someone pointed out earlier, you probably wouldn't even know.
You can not protect yourself through your W's actions, only through your reactions - or lack thereof.
Stop trying to justify your behavior which is really just you and your pride. Call BS on yourself.
M 46 H 44 D 12 S 8 M 9 T 11 BD 2/15/13 "Makes sense to stay together" 5/12/13 Agree we are 'healing' 7/13 Definitely Piecing 9/13