let's start at the end, shall we?

[KindaHappy1]

It was a weird night for me. I went to the house after work and put one of the desks together. I texted W to see if I had time to work on second desk, and we had some lite conversation and I cleared out before she got home. I was having a hard time because I suspected that she was with OM and not working. I listened to some old voice mails and I was in a bad place.

I dreamed about her and I and him too, and in my dream, we had some closure. Now, upon waking, I am feeling like I finally get that I need to stop thinking about her and the M and focus on me and what I want and need. I put so much into our relationship and I've made so many sacrifices, that I don't really know who I am outside of the M, so it is a time of rediscovery of me.