I was going to post about yesterday and how H and I run on Wednesdays in our group. How I texted him and said "are you coming down" instead of me assuming I was headed up to apt.

How upon meeting a quartet (!) from England and chatting them up, when they asked where we lived he said we were married, but he lived in city during the week, because we had a country home where I was. (On the walk home after he explained it was easier to just say it that way....{umm, no. It's easier to say "we are separated" lol.} )

How he said he sent a photo to three different people including me and NGF and I was the only one who found it funny (like he did;) )

How when I went to use bathroom, H said 'Do you want a shower before you go" and I said no, gave him a kiss and left.

Because when I got home, on my answering machine was NGF's crazy ex, who had called 15 times, left a message for H saying basically that NGF was his and H was to back off and leave her alone or H would have to deal with him.

I freaked, D was home alone while crazy boy was calling. I texted H and said I was furious (okay, add your own swear words, be inventive)

I said did I have to be afraid, and I didn't want to be scared in my own house. While I could deal with it, D14 was here and is often alone etc.

This morning-H calls NGF ex, and I get apology on machine form NGF ex...."Sorry, I was drunk...blah blah"

Text it to H, and he says NGF has been dealing with this guy harassing her for about a month and he is harmless-all talk.

Let's hope. I said to send NGF my sympathies, because ex was batsh*t crazy and no one should have to deal with crazy like that.

H says you dealt with me for 19 years.

I said A) it was mutual and B) that he is a woman's idea of "bonus" and NGF must have upgraded radar to deluxe model when she decided to go out with him.

H said *blushing* H never takes compliments like that from me without a joke.

Then he said "We really go through some weird stuff, don't we?"

What I am thinking is...ummm....WE?? this is your crazy boy. While I agreed to ride the roller coaster, I did NOT sign up for the freaking whirly gig!!

I only replied "Yes we do"


So at the end of the day, today, at 9 am lol, I am dealing with sadness more than anything. I should be really angry at H from dragging our butts into this, but I am not. I can't seem to unpack that feeling either...thoughts?



How he texted me like crazy, said he had a good night.