Still at Square One!!!

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H is definitely making life more interesting. That's if I had to look for the silver lining in all of this.....

He picked up the boys on Tuesday from camp and took them out. He then called and said they were coming home and asked if I had dinner for them. I did and they all came home and had dinner. As soon as he set foot in the house he talked non-stop. He wouldn't stop. As if he hadn't seen me in years.

We put the kids down for bed and I came down to wash the dishes. He asked if I wanted a drink. Kind of threw me for a loop. I said sure. He asked me if I wanted to hang out and told me if we did he wouldn't be able to go home. Would that be ok? I said sure.

He went and got our scrabble game (which we never ever play) and said let's play a game. We had fun. Like two friends. Had a drink, listened to music, and laughed. Later I fell asleep on the couch. When I woke up he was on the couch ready to sleep. I got up to go upstairs and he extended his arm asking for a hug. Which I gave him. I may have even given him a kiss on the cheek. I don't remember.

The next morning he joked and laughed about how he destroyed me in scrabble. I feel he loves me and is testing the waters. I feel he is trying to put this back together but I don't want to have false hope. That's the problem with how this whole separation has gone. In his mind he may feel we are just being friends and there is no harm in that......In my mind it's confusing. So is this his way of us testing things out?

Thanks TTD180 and Chasingpavements. I didn't let his kiss joke bother me. He is always playful. This time I shocked him by actually leaning in to do it. I think next time he will think twice about asking.