Me 10 months on. Dark and detaching still.

[hotwheelsaust]

Nope, no blaming myself anymore and not beating myself up about it anymore.
The reality is, do I think it has affected my chances in the sitch at all. Nope. Has it really made any change to the W's view or attitude. Nope.
If anything the defriending and lack of communication by family members and friends over this has made me detach a lot better that I have over the last few months. Maybe I needed to get rid of my detachment to the family members first, before I could detach better from the W.

On a separate thing, to show how much I have changed, will I think anyway. Got an email from the boss asking for time tomorrow to talk about personal issues. Normally I would be stressed out: what have I said to people, who has heard something, what have I messed up.
Today, I simply don't have the stress, worry or care about it. I will see him tomorrow, listen to what he has to say and answer back calmly and without emotion.
More than likely it is a check up to see how I am doing, as he knows the history of the sitch.