we were so close to freedom all the hard work and the kids and everything and we were going to be able to enjoy our lives he went and screwed it all up
I feel for you...
I have wondered this myself with my W...the kids were finally old enough to be more independent and we had a lot more freedom to do things together without the kids. we talked about that for years, putting off time together since we knew it would come later. Then later comes, and MLC....*sigh*.
Hang in there, do the needful with the D process, just focus on you and kids right now. FWIW, W didn't want to "see" me, just wanted to be gone from me, then she wasn't sure...many cycles of this through the last 2 years...not saying he will change his mind, only that you just never know with these mlc'ers...always expect the unexpected.
Hope hat helps some...
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm