I'm very sorry to hear about your co-worker. For some reason, there have been a quite a few suicides this year, more than usual. Yes, this could have happened to quite a few of us here had it not been support groups.

I'm sure your girls are enjoy the last days of summer and it sounds like you had a great time today w/them. They grow up so fast.

Please take care of yourself.

Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.