You did the right thing, stay the course! Work on you become a happy strong individual, now is the time to work hard on yourself. Be honest with what you want to change, however remember that you did the best you could with the tolls you had available to you at the time. If he wants some of what sthelen has he needs to earn it. That means to stop opening you up to STD's and emotional damage.
You can not change your past, but you can ruin a perfectly good present by worrying about the future.