let's start at the end, shall we?

[KindaHappy1]

Thanks PS, I appreciate you posting on my thread

Oh boy...typing on a iPad - hope I don't ramble on toooooooo much

What the hell do you want? Is she having an affair? Is that game over? How do you know.......your gut knows

I want my family back together. I want to move back and start working on making my marriage better. I want my wife and I to reconnect in a way we haven't been able to in years.

I don't know if there is an PA, but I know part of the breakdown was aided by a friendship with a guy she works out with. she said it is not a EA and told me that he would never sleep with her while she was married, which tells me they talked about it, so sounds like EA material to me.

It is not a deal breaker for me.

So you are going insane...what are you doing to clear your head? This should be physical. Please list

I drag my butt out of bed and jump on the treadmill and run for 3 miles, then I meditate for 40 minutes before I get ready for work.

I also am going to start seing a IC who works for the psychiatrist who put me on wellbutrin

Goals please- id some items in the 1-3 mth category and list them here

I am looking into some art classes, so far I have found on general class that I think I will be joining and then there is a painting class I want to sign up for too.
I am thinking of learning to weld, I found a place that offers a 2 hour course and then I also paid for a 2 hour intro to stained glass class.

I would also like to reconnect with a few friends and rebuild a scooter that has just been sitting there for a decade or so. That is something one of my friends offered, and I like the idea.

Stop snooping - shut up don't lie

Yes sir. I sure do need to get better on not snooping. It has only brought me pain. I am doing my best to not lie too. Honestly! In fact I am currently reading the art of communicating by Thich Nhat Hanh

Focus on you. You will feel layers of hurt you've never felt before and then it will happen again only worse - and she won't care.

um... I guess I will try to remind myself that I am still alive when that happens, and do my best to carry on and not let it drag me down too much if I can help it. Hopefully I will be off moderation at that point and can look to the forums for support.

Journal pls.....if you do this right you will be so happy months/ years from now when you see how far you've come.

Thank you. I have started a journal and will try to keep at it on a more regular basis. I tend to only journal when I feel really bad, and I am thinking that I need to get the positive feelings in there too.

Keep posting here- the more honest the better

Now read sandys rules again

The goal is to be stronger and be in control - you can do this!!!

I do plan to keep posting, and I try to read the rules at least 2 times a day, plus I have a copy in my car and one by my workstation at the office.

Thank you for believing in me!