pay no mind to the demons; they fill you w/fear

[Whiterose]

well, someone better get these guys a canary before they die in the tunnel.......

I'm working on my financials. been crying the entire time. got into an argument with one of my sisters, she was here to help me, I told her all the negative energy (H to me, them to H, them to me about my feelings for H)

I'm just not ready to be doing all of this. 14 pages of hell. I have my own business and cannot understand what I'm supposed to be putting for my income/gross/net etc so I need to ask my acct to help at $120/hr.

I apologized to S18 today. I told him I've been off for the last 24 hours and he said it was fine. I said that I know he wanted to live with his dad, when this all first happened, because he felt it was too crazy here and that I hope he doesn't feel like that again. He said he has no interest in living with a man that told him he has "people to give fair ride passes to that will use them more and basically be more deserving" I was shocked he would say that but then again not shocked-that make sense? He still talks/texts with his dad daily but I think is slowly getting angrier and pulling back