Lots of good inner work. I'm sorry to hear the GF confirmed.
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I have scheduled a meeting with X for this Saturday.. in which I will asking for distance.
Maybe it's just me, but that's a message so mixed that I can't imagine she'll take away what you hope she will.
It reminds me of the time, years ago, an X was irritated with me and, I guess, ignoring me. I didn't notice, which bugged the heck out of her. She got all in my face and announced, rather loudly, "I'm ignoring you!" I couldn't help laughing. Fortunately, she saw the humor in it, too.
But, that's probably not the effect you're aiming for...