There has been some significant, growing consistent, change, towards reconnection.
Since certain deadlines from her were/are coming up, ie, school starting, summer over, etc, I had really pulled back emotionally, dancing on the edge of "done" and mentally started moving on, versus just moving forward. It appears she might have picked up on that, not sure.
I will post about those reconnection details at a future date, since for some reason I feel the need to be extra cautious and NOT jinx it by posting the details atm (I know, superstitious, not exactly my usual M.O.). Maybe it's this hesitation to trust the reconnects on my part (after enough "touch and go's", I DO eventually learn, lol)...trying to give all benefits of the doubt.
Really working the fine line between "moving on too much" where she'll feel "he's gone, why bother?" and just give up, and moving too close, too fast, where she'll dive back into the weeds possibly.
I will say, her getting her job has been so helpful and a big change agent, both for getting an external view of the world and it's ways, and internally for her.
Sitting quietly, I see the answers hovering and flitting about, though not quite "here" yet.
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
