You are awesome and wonderful and logical, and a super friend!!!
Things don't go well when I am emotionally upset and interact with D, and I KNOW this and have done it anyway lately.
I stopped reading some of my posts that were helping me to handle my emotions, I really think I have given up on D, just that there is more and more of J in the picture and I am moving Pam more and more out of the picture, well he is also.
The D will be final now in a month and a half and he still brings nothing up about it at all. Still totally focused on his job.
You know I realized this morning I had been trying to leave the bb as I feel such a DB failure. But that is me and my judgment of myself again. I didn't fail in all areas of DB. I have made some changes in me that I really like, also have learned a lot about relationships and myself over the past year. I can't call all of that a failure, just because I wasn't strong enough to save my marriage. But I have been I realize.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
