Hola from Costa Rica! lol!!! Spin? You been following me? I spent a few days with my grandparents back home, a state away. Pops has late stage Alz and needs round the clock care. My younger sis and I took the weekend to help so my Aunt could go on vacation with her family.
All's the same on the rollercoaster that is my sitch. W still proclaiming her love to me secretly behind her AP back. AP keeps busting her by snooping on her. W keeps double talking her way out of it and AP keeps forgiving her. I just keep being me. Keep on keepin' on.
Forgiveness is a daily process. I am discovering that I am having a hard time forgiving that W lives with AP. I don't know why that feels so much harder to let go of that even the PA. It seems to push me further away from the love feeling for my W and more towards the anger. I don't know. Just something I am processing that caught me off guard.
So I need to drop some lbs. Today I am going to have my blood work, cholesterol, BP, and weight charted with an LPN and set up a plan to look and feel better. I'm excited for it. After W moved in with AP a month ago I pretty much gave myself a permanent hall pass to eat my emotions! So I'm going to use this ongoing counseling to hold me accountable and get me back on track.
Football season is here! I am a college FANatic! Go Gamecocks! Gonna try to catch up with all my peeps. I hope everyone is doing great.
Me(F):40 WAW:44 T:13yrs M:9yrs BD:2/12 (I saw a text) ILYBINILWY: 5/12 PA admission: 12/12 (began 3/11) S:2/13 Moves in w/AP D begins: 7/13 W moves home to R: 10/13
