better to love or be loved?

[willbwell]

My GAL, I went on meetup.com and joined a women's lunch group and a book club. All new people. no one who knows my situation...

I joined a prayer group, not at my church but a different local. Also new people who don't know my situation.

We are blessed in this country. I know that. I lived in Africa for 2 years so I do have first hand knowledge of just how blessed and how much we take for granted here.

I was resentful and critical of h. it is painful to admit. its ugly. still dealing with that. I get annoyed and become smart aleck. its not attractive. Surely, don't want to go thru life like that...
I've got to shovel out my own crap