Saturday just before 5 I got a call from D asking if I wanted him to come over. Now Friday he said he was thinking of coming over, but I decided not to play any word games and just said sure that is fine with me.
So he came over, greeted the dogs and then said how about pizza, I said fine with me and he ordered pizza and then started looking at my palm. He worked on it for about an hour because the darn system kept locking up or losing the mouse. He also checked out my system on the error it is reporting but he didn't know what to do about it.
I took the kids upstairs and fed them about time for the pizza to get here and then went downstairs and turned the fireplace on as we were both cold and we usually eat pizza downstairs. So we did and he said he hadn't had any lunch and was starving. Then he was sleepy as he ate too much.
He sat on one end of the sofa and me on the other, and later talking I sort of scooted down but he doesn't act like he wants to be close to me at all. You know I really must be detaching some, because looking at him sitting there, I didn't feel like I usually do when he is here, it was almost like looking at a stranger. He said what and I said it is like I forget your face when I don't see you for a long time, do you forget me? He said no.
He kept complaining about a sinus headache and the old Pam would have said do you want something, here try this, but I just sympathized with him every time he brought it up. Finally he said do we have anything for sinus? I said sure what would you like? So interesting that it was "do we" have medicine I thought as he has certainly been out long enough that I have replaced anything that was left when he was last living here.
When he got ready to leave I wrote out some checks and asked if he would put stamps on and mail them. When he moved he took our whole role of stamps and what I bought I used on Christmas cards and have used up again. He said sure, I also asked if he minded to drop my prescription off at the drive thru pharmacy and I would pick it up Sunday morning and he again said no problem.
When he got his coat on to leave, he said thanks for not being a bitch tonight. I raised my eyebrow at him, but bit my tongue. He said you were a bitch the other day, I did not say back well you were a B* ! I just said yes I had a very bad week and I got into the doctor as soon as I could when I realized my meds were not keeping me level. He gave me a hug and left to go to work, which he kept saying he hated to do.
He looked pretty comfy downstairs about asleep and the room warms up nice with the fireplace on.
Oh, forgot. When he first got here he told me he tried to wrinkle Lady Gray up!!! I said what happened are you all right? He said yeah he was coming off a ramp and the car in front of him started to move so he looked left and right and started forward and the lady had stopped again. So he spent an hour in the cold waiting on a cop to show up. He didn't make it to work by the time he was trying too when he dropped me after hair apt. Luckily nothing was too damaged and he commented sorry no blood. I said well that's good. I had told him about the dream I had about me and the one about him in a car accident and all bloody.
So no idea when he will be back, he is getting lots of pressure at work because the new system isn't up and running and the current one is overloaded and he is having to really baby sit it.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
