pay no mind to the demons; they fill you w/fear

[Whiterose]

H keeps pushing and pushing about the house. Wants his money Just got off the phone with my lawyer again saying his lawyer has emailed her again about what I intend to do.

It's so hard to breath when he's always pushing. I now see a pattern. He's desperate to talk to the boys on days he knows his lawyer is contacting mine.

I don't deserve this. My boys don't deserve this. I'm a good wife. A damn good wife and mother. It feels like he's trying to destroy me. He hates me that much. How is it possible that I love someone so much when he treats us so badly??

My lawyer responded that I was looking into finding a consigner and that I will not start paying half the mortgage as I'm carrying all the other expenses, I've already contributed twice to the last two payments and that child support and spousal are about what he'd be paying anyway

This is the worst experience of my life. Coming close to dying was easier than this