Divorced-not done-But wondering ?

[Live4myDay]

JJ, I'm curious. It's been two years from my divorce and XH has been with OW now since the separation. They live in different states and see each other prob 2x a month. However, they have gone on European 10 day excursion and spent 2 week holidays and extended weekends together. How do YOU handle the fact that X is with someone else? I go back and forth with hope and then back again with "look how happy he is without me"... X has no contact with me other than 2 kids S21/D22. D lives with me and he contacts her only...its as if I died. Never mentions me or asks. Completely gone but I still love him and never wanted divorce either. Honestly, sometimes I get just so obsessed with his actions with OW and not his kids. Trying not to go the "I hate him route". Do you know the OM? or anthing of their R?