Thanks Making changes. I really appreciate all the well wishes on here! The best thing happnened to me. my son made his debut two weeks early. He's almost two weeks old now. We had a nice delivery and he's professing very nicely for an early baby. It's as if he wants to catch up with where he should have been. he's totally adorable and strong in body as well as spirit. I'm totally in love with my son. I can barely put him down.
As for my H he has embraced his father duty with enthusiasm and he seems to be truly looking forward to our new house. I broke down several times and told him ILY. ESP emotional before my c section bc my mom was supposed to be there too and of course since baby came early she couldn't be there. He "thawed" out a bit, says good night' kisses on lips (just a tap) and "lets me" hug him. I will just see how things go but I know it's just bc of the emotions of having our son and even then it's me who initiated.
Think I'll be pleasant but take a step back on the ILY and affection. I didn't fuss when he went out to play hockey (he does once a week). I'm really trying to chill out.
Emotionally I am actually ok. My son is an avid breat milk drinker so I haven't even had a chance to consider an anxiety meds. But bigger than not considering them I actually don't feel I need them. I'm of course exhausted but have not had feelings of extreme anxiety or depression. I truly hope i am able to make it through without meds bc I really want to keep breastfeeding him as long as possible.
I'm nervous for my future but I'm way too busy to obsess about it like I did before. Anyway. Thanks again for all your help and concern.
my son made his debut two weeks early. He's almost two weeks old now. We had a nice delivery and he's professing very nicely for an early baby. It's as if he wants to catch up with where he should have been. 
