I have avoided completely imploding by holding on the belief that I can only trust some of what she says; that her efforts to end it were half hearted; and that it is not over until it is truly over. That being said, I do not have to tell any of you the grief and devastation I have felt this year. Some days, I truly lose all hope.
Sorry you find yourself here but you're in a good place on the forum. You'll find lots of support and help.
You're right that it's not over until it is truly over. Give her the time and space she needs. Work on yourself. Sounds like you've already started. 180 what you can.
We all have those days when we're ready to throw in the towel. It's part of the journey you've been forced into. Keep posting, even if just to vent or jounal. Read Sandi's Rules and DR. Read other threads. It's very early days and nothing is going to change overnight so don't expect it to.
The key thing is to work on yourself so that whatever the outcome you are a better person. You've got to try and maintain a PMA, as hard as its going to be. Stay strong.
Both 50 S14 M 16 yrs (his 3rd; my 1st)
ILYBINILWY - 24 Dec 2012 H moved out - 27 Jun 2013 Legally separated - 6 Sep 2013 Closing the door and changing the locks
